Eh, im trying to keep up with it all. I want to do so much but I never seem to get around to it. Dont worry, my spirt is still alive. As of right now, i am weighed down with alot of work. I finished reading Tristian and Issult (roman romance novel) and i have to finish Ovid's The art of love and write a paper on that by this wed. arrg. im used to being lazy and having time to think. Well I will leave you with a quote from Ovid relating to recent events with the war, of course love and war can be seen as the same:

Always, O race of man, your wit has been your disaster,
Cleverness, bent on gain, proved a calamitous loss.
What was the use of surrounding cities with turreted ramparts,
Arming your hands for war - what in the world was the use?
What was the ocean to you? The land should suffice for contentment.
Why not covet the sky, greedy for triple domain?

Now I’m going to say what you want to hear
And then I’m going to get on top and say s**t you can’t bear
Telling the truth about all the hypocrisies
And your life and what is really there
Stop hiding, lying, your only digging so deep until you find
That your feet have got your life turned into quicksand
It will slap you harder than your wife when she finds there’s no band on your hand
It’s all just to help no matter if you’re ready or not
No matter if you’re caught with a damn waste of pot you bought
Why are you waiting for life to make you old
Waiting for someone to put you into a choke hold
A little force just like everything you know and say is your life
It’s not yours, its all open doors but don’t forget to speak softly and carry a knife
Now all I’m saying is not to fight back the same ways
Just like following all the failures in your life, and getting lost in their haze
It’s an example of what you will become so stay clear of that road
Feel like being locked in a room with a tv and a couch with cigarette holes
You lost the key and all that liquor is building up to pee
Now that feeling of self contain, you can’t even get out of your brain
You hear them say knock knock, you don’t care who’s f***ing there
You just want to get out of this and breathe new air
The walls are throbbing with the pills you’ve been popping
All the while the tv has been getting louder and louder
The screen has turned into a mirror and all you see is your life in black and white
You say how can this be when all I did was sit on this couch and watch tv
Maybe that’s what it's gonna take for you to realize
It’s not the size of your brain or how many pockets you got
It’s not all the people you know or how many words you got
You say you have dreams, you got visions
But it’s all a repeat of what you’ve seen on television
Panic and sweat are met with a hand shake only hoping
That the rest of society will relate with the same time and date
Maybe you can find a spot in your busy schedule
Maybe you can stop the squeaky headboard
But it’s all just to keep your mind from wandering off
Keep it from knowing the prison bars are not far off
But why do I care what you see when you don’t even see me
I know there’s no way no one can understand what I got to say
I see things beyond getting up and ready for today
Trying to help you when you toss away a weeks pay just to get laid
Picking up your trail of empty bottles and boxes and bad habits
But maybe you don’t know and will never get it
And maybe you know and go lower and choose to forget it
What ever the case, what ever your truth is
Just know a man is measured by how he measures other men
Is judged by his own judging and by his own hand
So forget every thing that I’ve ever said
Weather its something you’ve read or something you took from what I said
Because you were born knowing the truth and it’s not out there somewhere
Not where you can read it or out where people preach and believe it
Inside lies the greatest treasure, even unlocked and no key to lock it
Now be willing and knowing that you already know
Don’t hold your breath just be ready to know
There’s nothing crazy about thinking out of the lines, not following the signs
You don’t have to believe me but you do have to hear me
Some might wonder how to take the first step to make the last lap
Wonder what’s wrong with my hat but there’s no place you can buy my thinking cap
It’s all inside where yours and your own rules are the only ones you abide by
So stop taking other people and making them something else in your mind
Stop buying and trying to stall time
Its not up to you to make the world better in your view
Its only up to you to be you

No Seperation

Rich people wouldn’t be rich if it wasn’t for the poor people paying them to be rich
So stand aside society
Stand aside ready for change
And not the kind that you find hitting the streets
Making your heart move faster than your feet
But the kind that beats you when you think your on top
You know we’re not ready for such
But it’s begging to get out
Begging to be free
It just takes one touch to change society
-:-All time ever does is grow things-:-

New Way To Heaven

There’s another way to heaven
Another way to heaven
There’s got to be another
Way to heaven
But what you didn’t know
Is that you got to go through hell
Surfing on this array of light
Searching words to explain
But I don’t mind that I am restless all the time
Cause I need to know, I need to know
If what I’m seeing is true
And I’ve felt this way, for ever so long
I just need to be untied
Well I couldn’t believe the sight
The sight that captured me last night
Everything disappeared and there is was so clear
A figure stood, about the size of a cross
And suddenly, a lasso was upon me
Pulling me in for the kill
Pulling me with all my skin
But it will all be gone soon
Still I wish I never kissed, that dark shadow in the night
I know there’s got to be
Another way to heaven
Another way to heaven
There’s another way to heaven
But what you didn’t know
Is that you got to go though hell

Taking it Old

Well I've been riding fifteen, in my car
Waiting for the answers to fall into my sunroof
And after I've drove this far
I’ve realized you have to reach out there and grab
So go on, go on, go on and get out
So just know no one is going to tell - you the answers
You got to open your palms, open your palms
Open your eyes, reach out and grab

The world is out there
For your taking
If you want you can hug every tree
Spend all day eating ice cream
But as long as you know
You're not doing it for anybody - else
You are really going to be where you ought to be
Driving 15 – below just to feel
With all your windows down, while its snowing
Now what would be, the point of talking
All we got is all we got, silence explains it all

Sitting behind the wheel on four wheels
Now how can I think I'm not going anywhere
The scenery pushes, over the hills
And -just-to-think-that-its-all-mine
Slowing the fifteen - pull over
Time after time, running out of gas
But its ok, there’s no one to blame
It’s a new day - new life for everything
And who's to say - I won't see what-you-never-will
At least I'll never take it for granted again
Now that I know, my feet also have places to go
You just have to be - willing to give in to control
Forget about what's new - forget about it, go back to the old